Earlier today I had a feeling of emptiness and lonliness. I couldn’t understand why I had this feeling, being surrounded by thousands of people in a shopping mall, and living in a city of 4+ million people.
Later on in the evening I spent time with some friends I haven’t seen in a while. I enjoyed a few beers, and we ate lots of food. We caught up on lost time and enjoyed the food from the pot luck dinner.
On my 3KM walk home, I was overcome with a feeling of spiritual bliss. It was a feeling I haven’t had in a long time. The type of feeling that you cannot achieve from any amount of money, illegal drugs, alcohol or orgasms. It’s the type of feeling you can only get when you make amends with a former enemy, or when you truly love someone. The type of feeling you get when you have complete control over your actions, or when you hug somebody you care about that you haven’t seen in a long time. The kind of feeling you get when you save somebody’s life, or make somebody’s day.
I miss the days when this feeling was more common. Why can’t you be there for me?